Lesson 1

As the clock starts ticking away on the last three months of my senior year, it is now the time where everything "she" has taught me needs to be put into practice. I have learned so much over the last 4 months from "her". Every day I await a new intellectual talk with a lesson learned. I don't mind staying up till all hours of the night because I am learning something from it. Most of the time I think she is hurting me with every word that comes out of her mouth. From "stop running away...there you go again" to "be happy", I always felt like she was judging me and trying to change me because she didn't like me the way I was but I realized something. After every story she told me of how I reminded her of herself her senior year, I realized that I am the one that wants to change and I have never had anyone help me along the way to figure out what it is that is wrong with me. There isn't really anything wrong but there are certain things that I do that continue to lead me down and a path of unhappiness. Spending the weekend with my big sister I learned so much more, whether it was in the nicest way or in the harshest way she got her point across to me. Before I could never point out my problems on why I am not happy but now I can thanks to her. With this I have my list of lessons thus far:
1. Stop running away from your problems; when it gets hard take the challenge and do all you can do to over come it, if you fail you get back never run away, it will never get you anywhere. The world is only so big, eventually you will have no where to run.
2. Let go of the past; give them a second chance, they are proving to you now more than ever how much they love you even though they were always gone. Take their compliments when they say they are proud of you, say "I love you too", and most of all cherish them because you never know what will happen after you leave to college.
3. Most of all, the one thing you learned this weekend as you so often didn't do it, LIVE FOR THE MOMENT. Stop thinking about tomorrow and live today, the basis of your stress is your constant thought for tomorrow; what about today? You haven't had a successful day if you constantly think about the future. The more you think about the future the more it scares you and the less meaningful memories you will have. You can always change your future; you can't change your past.