College Confusion

Well, as I am about to venture off into my third week of college it's time for me to settle out some things thus far. So college is pretty much awesome, I am having a great time but I wish I could have my friends here with me. I think that is what bugs me almost every day. As I try to enjoy the school the same things still bother me. It's too small, and I don't feel like I am in college, I feel like I am in high school just I live on campus. Most people here come from a small school and I don't so it's hard to get used to this. I am getting involved so far. Running for ASCLU is probably my favorite thing to do so far, now I just pray that I actually win. I really hope I win because I love doing this stuff. After experiencing the Club Lu activities so far like the back to school dance and Chuck E Cheese last night I realized I want to make this stuff happen too. So I am currently running for Programs Board. Wish me luck! As for clubs, I am signed up for Model UN, Nomads [we sleep around...campus] i am just in that for the shirt i think, and some other cool ones but I am dropping some like the lap swim club and the laso club. lol. So far I have met some amazing people. I love my Peer Advisor! She is so awesome that her language is rubbing off on me, and she is from Texas. haha. So if you ever hear me say "awkward", "sad day", or "sad" a lot...it's her fault. Food sucks here in the caf but the Centrum effing rocks. Now here comes the hard part. I am here to stay focused and transfer right? I realized that is going to be really hard. Not because of the relationships I am building but because I will be switching to something much different. Here, we are given all the help we need. I have 4 people I can go to if I need something, those are my mentors. Class size is smaller than high school and it's just small. I feel I won't be able to go to a bigger school if I transfer because I will fail because I am not used to that type of environment. I am going to try and love it here but so far those transfer applications will be happening, and hopefully they wont be necessary but we will see. Idk. i am just really confused lately. As for my rooming situation, I guess you can say that is part of the reason for my unhappiness. I don't have a bond with them at all. I can't stand the way our dorm looks right now, for those of you that know me you will understand what's wrong with this picture when I say, "I am the cleanest person" lol. well actually just me and my room mate the other girl is extremely messy and I can't stand it because I keep up with cleaning everything...I TAKE OUT THE TRASH, I CLEAN, I DO THINGS I NEVER DO. lol. but anyways...I miss my friends a lot. I really hope Elysia does come to visit but I know she is busy so I don't expect her to go out of her way. Best friend is in college now and it scares me cuz idk where things will go from now.
As for the positives, the RA I hang out with is simply amazing. Rebecca is so awesome I love spending time with her. We have lots of bonding time together :) She went with me to get my campaign stuff and yea she is pretty much awesome. Jessica S is awesome too she is my campaign manager right now and yea everyone says we act like we have known each other for years, I guess that's a compliment. 111 girls, omg, these girls are just awesome I always have a good time with them, especially last night...drunken times oh my. Christine is freakin awesome we hung out tody and went to church she knows EVERYONE its creepy. Well that's college so far.
-Ashley