Here we goooo.

Ten Things You Want to Say To Ten Different People:

1. Thank you for being so understanding all the time. You keep going almost every day even if we are not talking all the time. Knowing you will always be there gives me comfort to continue when things get hard. The distance kills me. The memories with you are endless though and that is something I will always cherish, have to look back on. We still have many memories to make together, cuz like you said you aren't going anywhere and neither am I. We're both stuck with each other.

2. I'll never understand why you did what you did. I'll never understand what truly happened. I will never understand anything that happened to be quite honest. I will never know the truth. I want to know the truth, I want you to just tell me the truth. The truth, would set me free, I just want you to set me free. I should be fine, but I am not. I don't know why I am not till this day. Lie. I know why. I lost something very important. No I lost you, forever. It breaks me every day. It really does.

3. Don't ever under estimate me about you. What you said the other night was exactly what I felt, something I never wanted to say, but when you said it, I felt so much better. You knew it. I knew it. Karma. You are in the position I was in last year. I never thought you would have said it, but for once I was right. For once, you understood me. For once, we understood each other. Seriously, I love you, you have changed my life in so many ways, thank you for everything, and just remember, I'll always be here. Just remember, I love you forever.

4. Things are not the same. They never will be. You and I both want them to be but they never will be. I can't pretend that we are fixing things when we are not. You are different. You are the different that you were two years ago and I can't stand it. I can't stand the way you are around those people, but it is your life now. I don't fit in. You will call me when you need me though, and I will answer. It is the same cycle. The cycle or sitting and waiting. I can never be your best friend. I don't hate you. I miss you. I love you. I wish things were the same, but they aren't and never will be sadly. Here's to 2008.

5. Sometimes I wonder how I would have gotten through my first semester of senior year without you. I miss you so much. I wish I could just talk to you every day like before. I wish I had a reason to wake up in the morning get to school early just to go talk to you. Sitting next to you on the bench was the best part of it all. You pretty much let me talk crap to you to distract you. You were my strength when every one else walked out on me. I hate that you are far away from me, but always when I am about to give up, you call. Or email :)

6. Thank you for the last year of friendship. It has officially been a year since we started hanging out. You are an awesome person I never pictured becoming so close to. In fact, I still don't really know how that happened. I miss you every day when we are at school, knowing that we have to wait until break to see each other, but oh well. It's weird to see us together and how things are like we just saw each other a few days ago, it is really weird, but I wouldn't have it any other way. Thank you :)

7. You were like the little Steph that never left. You kept me going too. You made me not give up on her. It was like she told you to look after me or something. I really don't know how it is we got close, but good thing we did. You would be lost without me and I would be lost without you. Sorry that I can be pushy sometimes, I just know you know what you want, and you are letting the wrong things keep you back. Just know, that any decision you make, I will support.

8. Our frienship is weird, I am not going to lie. It is really weird. I mean, it's been good all four years. It's awesome all the time. We can do absolutely nothing but eat Little Ceasar's and watch Clerks II and have fun. Maybe a game of would you rather. It is always fun with you. I love it. You love it. I miss it all the time knowing that it will be months before we get to experience it again. Well, at least we always have something to look forward to though!

9. Sisters, I swear. You are my freaking other half, we never effing talk. Like ever. But still we continue on like sisters. We fight, both physically and verbally. You always win, though I am older. WE are there for each other NO MATTER the situation, and really, we have gotten through some interesting situations together, at all times of the day and nights. I always know when something is wrong, and you do to. We are like clock work. It's crazy and that's why you are my 5150.

10. You deserve nothing but an apology. I tried to make it seem like you did something wrong, and you never did. It was never you. I am sorry for the amazing friendship that ended. I am sorry that we went our different ways. It sucked to watch you go back to the same person over and over, but I am glad she is gone now. I am glad that things are looking up for us. I am so thankful we know what second chances are. I hope to one day get the truth from you too.

Nine Things About Yourself:
1. I like to shop alone.
2. I like peanut butter on my pancakes
3. I am scared of the dark.
4. I write songs but keep them to myself.
5. I don't let go without a fight.
6. I have had my heart broken once.
7. I don't like the ocean
8. I have a lot to live up to because of the standards people set for me.
9. I hate being alone.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart:
1. Make me laugh
2. Bring me flowers and teddy bears
3. Just talk on the phone with me
4. Watch the stars with me
5. Laugh at me
6. Make fun of me
7. Let me dress you
8. Surprise me.

Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot:
1. Future
2. School
3. Friends.
4. Family.
5. Someone.
6. What If?
7. Transferring

Six Things You Want To Change About Your Life:

1. finding MY direction
2. my appearance
3. raise my confidence
4. be proud of myself
5. constantly being positive
6. learn to trust again

Five Turn Offs:
1. Arrogance
2. Laziness
3. No aspirations
4. No Fashion
5. Lack of confidence

Four Turn Ons:
1. Confidence
2. Smile
3. A future
4. Personality

Three Smileys That Describe Your Life:
1. =/
2. ;-)
3. :-D

Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. Be Happy
2. Understand my reason for existence

One Confession:
1. I am insecure.