CHANGE!

C.H.A.N.G.E.

We don’t like it, we fear it…but we cant stop it from coming, we either adapt to change or we get left behind.
And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying.
But here’s the truth, the more things change the more they stay the same.
And sometimes, oh sometimes change is good.
Sometimes change is everything.

- Meredith Gray

My life has definitely changed since I left for college. I have lost friends, gained friends, and created new relationships. Coming into the first semester of college, I had left the valley a changed person - optimistic, confident, and ready to take on the world. When I got to school I found myself the same minus the whole confident thing, but I eventually learned. I found people who accepted me, people who just wanted to be my friend, people who were just so nice in every way. It was weird, seeing how the entire school was nice, I thought something was wrong with them. How could someone be so happy and excited to see me all the time. I didn't get it, but now I do. This semester was rough, the whole adapting to college life semester. Now for me, college level work wasn't anything new for me because of IB, but it was the changes in friendships I would experience, the changes in my routine, that was it, there was NO routine anymore. It wasn't wake up, go to school, homework, do it the next day all over again until the weekend where you got to be free and have fun anymore. I get to go to class at random times, and hang out with people allll day, and live with them for that matter, and just always be doing something. This is when I realized I had to learn to balance, in fact I am still learning to balance, next semester is going to be more balancing. I want to pull of a 4.0 and I want to have fun, but I also want to be able to keep in touch with friends from home.

This semester I was probably a disappointment to someone whether or not they'd like to say they thought it. I probably let them down, or to them they felt like they were let down. It sucks seeing how different we are with each other now, and I hate it. I hate that I have to be distinguished as LITTLE and not just little. I don't like knowing there is someone else that gets to call her Big and it's "official". Yea I am jealous, I am not afraid to say it. She used to hate this change too, but I am glad she is finally accepting it. See that's the thing, I just gotta accept it. She has to get used to the fact that I am growing up, and I have to get used to the fact that there is someone else closer to her that needs her too, but I will forever be the one that helped her fulfill one of her goals, and no one can take that away from me.

Change, it always scary for me, I didn't like it. No one likes change though, I mean once you get used to something it normally always changes, and that's what SUCKS about it the most. You know what though, if it wasn't for change where would everyone be? Change creates new obstacles for us to tackle, it creates drive for us to succeed, it creates new goals for us to reach, and it most importantly creates the person we are. Like Meredith Gray states, CHANGE IS EVERYTHING.